Well here it is! my first post on the pregnancy forum 
Things have been going well so far. No symptoms really at all other than a sore chest and the occasional cramp here and there. Which has me worried as my mother has told me that morning sickness means you have a healthy baby. This is my newest worry now you see, that i will have an unhealthy baby. Dont fret, ill worry about everything the whole way thru, this is my nature! According to the pregnancy calendar im in my 8th week now. I cant figure that out as i concieved 6 weeks ago, im so lost on all of this! lol
Oh and i had a big breakthru with the father this weekend. Long story short, we went camping this wknd, i was asleep and he met the neighbors who were 2 couples with kids. Had a few beers with the guys and asked them about being fathers, he also told them he felt like his life was over (i was listening in lol) They laughed at him and told him fatherhood was the best experience of their lives and that he will be so happy. He responded that he was so relieved to hear it. Then he came back over, and talked to me about it. Said he realized it was a gift from God to us, and that we should be happy about it together. I didnt push the issue further, but im glad he's coming around. He's very loving to me and other than not talking about it, he's been there for me emotionally. And i havent pushed him at all about it... so, i think were moving in a positive direction.
So all in all, so far so good. Just hope the baby is healthy! when can i find out about dna tests and other things to make sure the baby is ok? id like to know early on if possible! thanks all! hugs!! Sue
Monday, August 21, 2006
37 and not so scared!!!
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Hi Susan! Good to see you here!
I'm glad to hear things are going better with bf. Sounds like he'll probably come around, after all. I wouldn't worry too much about not having morning sickness, some women do, some don't. I usually only had it for a very short time and it was very mild. It was usually from around weeks 6-12, sometimes not even that long. I had one pregnancy where I never even had it at all. I wouldn't worry too much about the tests, etc., either. They check for all sorts of things and they have them all at specific times in the pregnancy. You probably won't start with those until around 20 weeks or so. I'm sure everything's fine! Keep us updated!
Hi All! Just thought id drop in an update. things are going so-so here on my end. Ive been very irritable and moody lately. Mark and i are still together, he's told most of his family other than his parents, and theyre coming around. We discussed moving in together this week but have been disagreeing on how much money he should chip in Rolling Eyes . its very frustrating to me and im exhausted by it all. im officially 12 weeks tomorrow! its going by so fast already. im still feeling so strange about it. kind of detached and still not "excited", is this normal??? im a bit worried. its not that i regret it or anything, i dont know how to explain it. its partly because mark hasnt been happy about it and i feel its taboo to talk about, with anyone pretty much, i think my friends and my mother are more excited than i am! i had a meeting with the nurse last week and am meeting my doctor next week. they seem very nice and attentive to me. am also considering that "triple test" where they do the afp with an ultrasound to check for downs, etc. after reading all the literature, im really scared my baby will have 2 heads and 20 fingers on one hand!! Sad is this normal too?? i just really dont know what normal is right now!!
It's very normal to not be so excited at this stage in your pregnancy. And it's also normal to feel scared - a lot of people are scared, even in a planned pregnancy. When Mark starts to come around a little more and the hormones settle down (so you're not quite as moody - although I think the two go hand in hand) then things might be a little happier for you. Also, right now it may not seem very "real" to you yet - wait until you hear the heartbeat and feel movement.
It's VERY normal to be scared about the baby and if he/she is developing normally and will be okay. I know you said in your earlier post about not having morning sickness, and hearing that morning sickness = healthy baby - try not to worry in that direction. I had 3 kids and only had morning sickness with one of them, and all of them were/are very healthy. I know telling you not to worry is like telling the sun not to shine Smile but really, try not to worry unless you have reason to worry.
As for Mark, make sure that you include him in your decisions, and see if he will come with you for your tests, especially the ultrasound. A lot of times men need to "see" something before it becomes real to them. But don't push him to feel something at this stage, he needs to come to terms with it in his own time. I'm hoping that will be soon - having a baby with someone you love can be a very exciting thing.
Please let us know how the tests go, and of course, come back here anytime Smile
Good to see you Sue Smile
Marnie gave you some great advice on all your concerns. A lot of your hormone craziness will start to decrease in a week or two most likely - as you move into the 2nd trimester. Then you'll have a honeymoon phase where you just have that "glow" everyone talks about. Wink
Yes, it's normal to not feel much excitement yet. As you experience more milestones - hearing the heartbeat, having your 20-week ultrasound, feeling the baby move, etc., your excitement will pick up. Do you want to find out the sex? Shopping and choosing baby names will also really help in this department.
Mark will come around. Men are just a little slower than women, because like Marnie said, they need to see something. The first time he feels the kicks or sees the baby on the ultrasound, that might help. Nothing really got to my DH until my DD was born though. It just wasn't real enough.
The triple-screen test is up to everyone individually. I declined it because of the high rates of false positives (I don't want more worry), because I wouldn't have an amnio (miscarriage risk), and because I knew I wasn't going to have an abortion. It is SO normal to worry about every possible thing that could go wrong. If you weren't worried, I'd be worried. Wink I've been through all those concerns with this pregnancy about a million times. Razz
You're normal girl! Smile
thanks ladies as always for your good advice and positive support! at first i didnt think i wanted to know the sex of the baby, but i just dont know HOW i would be able to not know all that time! lol! Im feeling a bit better today. taking a "mark break" for a few days to regroup. i do know he will come around, but his attitude better start changing towards me or i will make a go of this on my own! i will not keep him around just because i am pregnant. i deserve more than that! I also said some prayers last nite and felt closer to the baby this morning for some reason. i guess i really am lucky not to have been sick all this time so far! the only crappy thing is im a plus sized girl (size 16) , so i really cant see any changes to my body yet! Sad and i had been dieting before this so it sucks i cannot keep trying to lose weight, but at least my chest doesnt hurt quite as bad as it was! So i will keep you posted and thanks again for giving me some much needed encouragement! Very Happy
It's always very unfair when you're treated poorly by your BF because of the pregnancy. Right now he is probably just very freaked out and doesn't know how to express the fear and emotion, and so you get the cold shoulder. Men that wait to come around until after the baby is born are often very apologetic later, but that doesn't help now I know.
I was plus sized with my first too, and I didn't really show until I was 32 weeks pregnant! I was around I size 20 though I think. I was afraid that would happen with this pregnancy too - HA! Silly thing to be worried about. Razz I was showing at around 24 weeks probably. Still a lot later than most women with their 2nds...my friend was showing at 10 weeks. Razz It's funny...you have this "I wanna look pregnant!" thing for so long, and then when you finally do look pregnant you say "I'm sick of looking pregnant!" LOL
I'm glad you're feeling closer to the baby. That will only increase over time. Smile Prayers often help in these matters. Smile ((((Hugs))))
Hi all! just wanted to give you an update. Went to see my doctor finally last week. She was really nice. Did an impromptu ultrasound and told me i was 10 weeks and 4 days, i was a bit off in my predictions! But so far so good! Feeling fine, although im exhausted 80 percent of the day! It was nice to see the baby. Made it a little more real for me. It was moving all around and the heart rate was 158. The doctor said all looked good so far.
Things are still a bit unsteady on the homefront. Mark and i have still been spending tons of time together trying to find our niche i guess you could say. His sister had her baby this week and he went to see him today. He seemed pretty excited about it. Were still arguing about things but i dont think that'll ever change! Rolling Eyes
Spent alot of time with my mother this past weekend. Needless to say she is veryyyy excited and making alot of plans for a big shower, etc. Im not so sure about the big shower as i am not married and it was a bit unexpected, but i dont think ill get a word in edge wise on the issue! It was nice to spend time with someone who thought of the occasion as a blessing rather than a hindrance i can tell you that much!
On another note, my doctors partner called me today at work and said my urine culture showed i had a uti and wants me to take antibiotics, which i think is strange as i do not have any symptoms of one... ever hear of this?
I went on half.com this last week and ordered the girlfriends guide to pregnancy, and what to expect when you're expecting so i hope to gain alot more insight and information there too. Hope everyone is well and thanks for the support as always!
off to bed, can hardly keep my eyes open, could it be due to the fact i go to the bathroom once an hour starting at 4am? lol.... nite!
Actually, UTI's are extremely common during pregnancy. I don't even know why, but they are and the antibiotics they give you are perfectly fine, won't hurt baby at all.
How nice that your mom is excited and wants to throw you a huge shower! I wasn't married, either, and felt a little funny about it, but it was nice to be surrounded by people wanting to help with things and wanting to celebrate with me. You'll get lots of stuff that you need for baby and you'll have lots of fun, too! Enjoy it!
I love getting ultrasounds - I'm glad your doctor let you have one. Smile Since you're almost out of the first trimester, you'll start to perk up pretty soon. You'll be less tired and less sick.
How COOL that your mom is excited for you! The shower will be so much fun. Remember...showers are to celebrate the baby, and your baby deserves a celebration whether or not you are married, right? Right. Let your mom pamper you and get you excited about things! Smile
If you don't have UTI symptoms, it probably isn't a huge infection. They are really common in pregnancy. They can cause some crampiness in addition to typical UTI problems, so the earlier they catch it the better.
(((Hugs))) I hope that things with you and Mark hold steady. Just remember that he's just really freaked out and pretty clueless about whether or not this is a good development in his life. Once the baby is born, he'll know that it is good.
Write again soon!
Things are going well on my end so far. Im at week 15 as of today and feeling fine. Decided to skip all the what-if tests and am going to schedule an amnio next week. I am very nervous about it. Not about the test itself so much, but the results. I made the mistake Shame on you of reading the first few chapters of the book "what to expect when youre expecting". Not a good book for me! After reading all the negative things about my age, and my weight, it has me freaked out that my baby will really not be normal. Dont really recommend this book for anyone who is a worrier! Then my concerns about the amnio are, what if there is something wrong? what will i do? by the time i get the results i will be close to 20 weeks, i know i wouldnt want to terminate that far along. And am pretty attached to my baby already, so enough of me worrying about whats to come i guess, just have to wait for it!
Things on the Mark front are going well too. Ive showed him my ultrasound pics (i work in an imaging center so i have connections!) and he's been pretty excited and inquisitive about them. It was great to see the baby moving all around, and to see that it has fingers and toes. Even though it looks like an alien! lol it was sucking its thumb too so that was fun to see! Who knew i was capable of creating this!? So theres my update, hope everyone is well and im glad to know Syndi's baby is ok! Very Happy
Thanks for the update, Susan! Glad to hear all is well. I didn't do those tests, either, just figured I'd stress myself out over nothing. You know those books have to mention all the negative possibilities, just so no one can say they left it out, but it's unfortunate that they don't give statistics about how low the probabilities are. I've heard more women say the same thing....it just makes them worry more. I'm sure everything will be fine! You'll be in my thoughts, though! Glad to hear Mark seems to be coming around, too. My fingers are crossed that everything will turn out exactly as you want it to! Smile
Hi Susan. Smile Congrats on making it out of the first trimester! Are you feeling any better with the morning sickness? Hope so!
What to Expect is a pretty depressing book. Razz I really prefer the Pregnancy Week by Week book. WTE is allllll the negatives about pregnancy and about a sentence or two about the positives. Razz Not to mention their diet isn't that much fun!
I'm sure your baby is just fine. Things seem to develop properly most times....amazingly. But I think every mom worries about the same thing with every pregnancy. I know I did. But I'm too much of a worrier to take those tests and get a false positive, and I knew I wouldn't have an abortion, so why take the test. Razz The 20 week ultrasound told me things were okay.
You'll have to let us know how it goes!
Glad that mark is coming along. It sounds like he's going to enjoy being a dad. Smile
Ha, yes i had what to expect, and really didnt like it. There are a whole bunch of way better books out there! Good to hear everything's ok Very Happy Your baby will be super healthy i'm sure. I skipped most of the tests too, didnt want the anxiety. yay, being pregnant is so fun!
Well I had the amnio on tuesday. For me, it was horrifying! The skin puncture was no big deal, but i found out later the tech was newly out of school.... and during the amnio, she could not for the life of her find the needle for the doc! After him bobbing the needle up and down for over ten minutes with me in agony, he yelled for her to find someone who knew what the hell they were doing! then the senior tech comes in, finds it right away and tells the doc he's in the wrong place and it has to be REPEATED!!! Mad so when i awoke from basically passing out it was over and ive been in alot of pain since. Just feeling very bruised!
So i hope it was worth it! Although it was a good cause!!
In other news, i sent marks mother a letter last week notifying her of my pregnancy! i couldnt let it go on any longer! She called me on sunday and was very loving and supportive which was a great comfort. Then he called the next day apologizing for being such a jerk and would i let him try again. So that i am taking day by day... we'll see. Hes got alot of things to repair on this end but seems willing!
So thats my latest roller coaster life story, more to come im sure!! Anxious
Ugh. Sorry to hear that the amnio was so awful. Have you gotten the results back? Everything looks okay?
I'm glad to hear Mark's mother is being great. Hopefully he turns things around, too.
Thanks for the update!
yeah amnios can be rough...luckily my last one was much better than the one i had in my 4th pregnancy. I hope things come around for you with the mother and him!!! Good luck...post those results when you can...I think the watiing for them is the worst
Well i got my quad results yesterday. The neural tube tested fine, but the afp suggested i have a 1 in 85 chance of my baby having downs. I know the number isnt that high but to a first time mom it is higher than the sky!!!! I told them to schedule me for an amnio ASAP, but am not sure exactly what i will do with the results when i do get them! Wait and see i guess!
On other notes, things are not good at the home front. I broke up with Mark last week as he is still so down about the baby again, and it wasnt fair to me to deal with that. Its made it so hard for me to be happy about my baby. Im going to call and schedule an appt with a therapist tomorrow as i do feel i need someone to talk to about this. I also sent his mother a letter on monday as he still has not told her!!!! Rolling Eyes I am 17 weeks now, she needed to know. So i am anxiously awaiting her response, and his i guess.
This is just so not how i planned for my life to be Crying or Very sad but i will work thru it. My friends and family try to talk to me and be supportive but they just dont understand what im feeling. Especially because i dont think that even I do!! anywho.... thats all for now, time for some food!
take care all.
Hi Susan,
Glad to hear your test results came back good. I wouldn't worry too much about the downs, that test for some reason has a high rate of false positives, I think. It always gets people worked up when there's really nothing to get worked up about (most of the time, anyway.) I'm sure the amnio will come back fine.
Sorry to hear about things with Mark. It sounds like you're doing the right thing, though, letting him know that you won't tolerate his negativity. You definitely don't need that right now. The counselor is probably a good idea, too.
You know we love updates, so keep us posted.
we had the exact same results!!!!!!!!!!! mine were also 1:85 for downs....my amnio came back normal though...hopefully yours will too...i also had a postive result with my 4th child and it was 1:200 with her and shes fine as well
Well everything came back perfectly on my amnio! Im verrry relieved! My SON is doing just fine!! Very Happy Belly is still growing, i finally gained a pound! Which for us bigger girls, is a GOOD thing during pregnancy! I actually read somewhere that being larger in size means gaining less weight during pregnancy, im sure i have enough fat stored already to feed the baby for a month without me eating a crumb! lol!
anywho... not going to talk about the mark thing, kinda tired of beating a dead horse if ya know what i mean. Hope everyone is well! Wink
Hi Susan - awesome news on your amnio results! I'm so happy for you! Now you can just relax and enjoy the rest of your pregnancy Smile Keep us updated.
Hi Susan, I'm so glad that the amnio came back just fine! Now you get to concentrate on getting ready for your little man! How far along are you now? Over half-way done, right? I'm so excited for you.
Well i finally have six months under my belt! Things were going ok up until last week when i decided to get some kidney stones!!! Crying or Very sad its been a horrible thing for me thats for sure. Never had them before, Ive been reading that its a pretty common thing for pregnant women. Rolling Eyes I was hospitalized last week for 4 days when they finally decided (against my better judgement) to do a cystoscopy and stent placement. The surgery was ok, i had a spinal and didnt feel a thing. But the stent, was another thing! I couldnt sit properly or go to the bathroom without extreme pain and cramping for days. I finally couldnt take it anymore and had it removed last wednesday. I feel alot better but there is still another stone (the first came out during the procedure). So everyday i have these "attacks" i call them. Just bad back pain for a few hours. I hear women can have these stones all the way thru pregnancy!! Shocked So i hope i am not one of them! I will certainly remind Lucas about the pain he caused me when he is bad! lol
Anywho, everything else is ok. I was veryy surprised last week when my dad stepped up and said that he will be the one babysitting when im at work. I never thought that would happen! My mom said he's very excited. So im glad he'll be with someone he knows while im gone at work. As far as mark goes.... as usual, i do not know where were going to end up. He is being his usual selfish self, and im very tired of the way our relationship is progressing (or not). I really wonder if im just settling on account of the baby? Ive already had one bad marriage and dont plan on having another. But i really want to be happy. I think its my turn! anywho... ill update again soon! hope everyones doing well! Smile
Hi Susan Smile
Wow..six months! And you poor thing with kidney stones...((((Hugs)))). I never had those, but I've heard they are tremendously painful. Matter of fact, they liken the passing of kidney stones (in men) to that of having a baby. I hope that the pain lets up. The last couple of months of pregnancy are uncomfortable enough.
I'm glad your dad will be watching Lucas (cute name!) for you. That is a relief. As for Mark, try to see how things are after Lucas is born...although I know that's hard. If he's still an idiot, then yes, I don't think you'd deserve that. Maybe he just doesn't know how he'll feel yet though.
So glad to see your update! Post again real soon hon!
Hey Susan,
I've been thinking about you over the last few months, since, as you mentioned in October, our situations do seem quite similar. It was really helpful to know back then when I was trying to figure out what to do that I wasn't alone.
Time flies, doesn't it? I was looking at my calendar the other day thinking, Four months?! And you're already six! I'm really glad for you that your dad wants to play such an integral part in this experience. It will be so good for everyone--you, him, and your baby. Sucks about the kidney stones, though! Sad
I can totally relate to your relationship woes...only too well, unfortunately. With my boyfriend, things are pretty much touch and go from one day to the next. We'll spend the weekend together and he'll talk about how he wants a life with me and how excited he is about the baby, etc....and then a couple days later things are a mess and I'm left wondering if I should just end it once and for all. Crying or Very sad The pregnancy certainly comes into play for both of us as far as working it out goes, so I understand your fear of the whole "settling" thing. Hope things pick up for you.
Well 7 months has arrived! Its been quite the roller coaster so far...... my newest challenge is having the 3 hr glucose test on friday. My initial test was verry high so im pretty concerned. As usual, i am reading too much information online about gestational diabetes and have myself very freaked out! I just dont want anything to happen to my baby, especially this far along! So we shall see, the only good thing about friday is i also get to have a 4d ultrasound to see what Luke looks like! Im definitely looking forward to that!
The shower is being planned for 2/24. It should be a good time and it will be nice to see family and friends! Albeit awkward for me as i am going to be a single parent. Anxious
On that note, things are still not looking up in the Mark department. We havent seen each other since before Christmas and cant seem to communicate with each other properly. Its been really hard going thru this all alone, but i am adjusting. The whole baby getting here situation is a whole different story, but i am getting mentally prepared!
Well thats all for now, ill update you when i find out about the 3 hr GTT!
take care all!
Hi Susan,
Time really goes by fast, doesn't it? I'm 5 and a half months along already. I just wanted to drop you a line because I feel like I can totally relate to your situation with Mark.....it looks like I'm probably going to be doing it on my own too. My boyfriend left on New Year's eve to work out west for a few months (swearing he'll be home before the baby's born, of course). Since then, we had a massive fight over the phone, with him saying he doesn't want to have a baby with me now (!). The whole conversation was very upsetting to me, with him talking about how I should have had an abortion and that he thought I was smarter than that, etc. And it was only a few days before Christmas that he was saying we should get married, that he was so excited about having a baby....
Anyway, since I really have no idea what's going to happen between us or how involved he's going to be, I figure all I can do now is focus on trying to make the rest of my pregnancy a positive experience and try to be happy about being a mom. But I wanted to let you know that you're not really alone, even if you're a single mom. It's nice for me to know there are others in the same boat, even though I wish you didn't have to go through it.
Wow Susan...7 months already! Time will slow down now for you...lol. How was the glucose test? I hope you passed it. I had gestational diabetes with my last pregnancy and had to be on insulin, so feel free to ask any questions. Your baby will be just fine - he might be bigger than normal, but my son wasn't, so don't sweat that either.
Please enjoy your shower! You deserve it hon! Put that thought about being a single parent out of your mind. A baby should be celebrated any time no matter what, and this is your time to be celebrated. You're doing a terrific job, and you deserve a bit of pampering. Wink
I'm sorry that the men in both of your lives are being such poops! I wish I could shake them! I know it's hard, but try to remember that men don't handle chaos very well...they react in strange ways. (Sorry guys, but it's usually true!) The mood swings and anger are evidence of that. As hard as it is, try not to make any final decisions about them until the baby is here. They might flip completely once they see their little ones. (((Hugs)))
Well its been awhile since ive been here!! Hope everyone is well! Things are a bit crazy here as always! The belt on my dryer blew out and ran a cloud of soot thru my furnace vents causing a mess here in the house! So now im in the process of an insurance claim and having the entire house painted and recarpeted! It all sounded great but now the house is in a SHAMBLES!! Shocked and the carpet wont be here until next weekend so i have to deal for another week! But my shower is tomorrow, which im still a little freaked about but looking forward to also! Just that i wont have anywhere to put anything!!!!!!!!!!! ahh welll....... so much for timing huh?
Otherwise things are good! I didnt pass the 3 hr glucose test so i had to start checking my blood. Which oddly enough just by cutting out candy Crying or Very sad i havent had any spikes at all so far! imagine! my one craving... oh well! So time is just flying by, Lucas is due 4-6-7, right around the corner it seems...but he's pretty content where he is right now and so am i! my stomach has popped out quite a bit finally, but i can still wear my normal clothes which im pretty satisfied with! Feeling great so far still but i am having periods of pure exhaustion again as well! Sometimes at work i feel like i can do a face plant anywhere i am and go to sleep! not too productive at times! lol
And now my biggest worry (you know i have to have one!!) is my DELIVERY!! ive read toooooo many books and they all have me freaking out! i dont know if im strong enough to go thru this part honestly, id love to find someone else to do it for me if there are any takers! lol but i guess this too, i will get thru.
Mark has come around a bit more these days. He stays here pretty much all the time now. And the other day he was feeling the baby move in bed and talking to him! that was a first. I know he's still terribly freaked, but he's making some headway since our last split. I do appreciate it. But am still more than able to go it alone if he really goes over the edge!
anywho... enough of me rambling, gotta get my outfit ready for tomorrow, my big pink maternity top lol but ill still be wearing my new 4 inch heels! some things NEVER change!!!!!
take care! Very Happy
Sounds like you're dealing with quite a bit of chaos right about now! It'll be great when all is said and done though to have the fresh paint and new carpet. I'm jealous! Smile
I know what you mean about being worried about the delivery...I'm such a book worm myself that as soon as I found out I was pregnant I started devouring every book or article on the subject. Which, as I've found out, is not exclusively a good thing! Not to mention all the horror stories women keep telling me about their own deliveries (why would you do that to a first-time mom?!). But I've found that the books about natural child birth tend to be the most positive and encouraging, even if you are planning (or end up needing) drugs or surgery. A couple of my favorites that I read recently were "Active Birth" by Janet and Arthur Balaskas, and "Birth Reborn" by Dr. Michel Odent. Even though they're a tad old-school, they both have a lot of really good pictures and advice about listening to your body as far as birthing positions go, and they approach birth like more of a natural physical challenge or feat than a medical intervention. Very pro-female too.
Another thing I'm finding useful in calming me down is visualization. I've just been getting an image in my mind of a smooth delivery, feeling in control, and having a beautiful baby to hold as the result of all my hard work duing labour! I mean, obviously it's going to hurt like hell, but it's not without a payoff at the end!
Hope you have a great baby shower! Have fun.
Yes, childbirth is scary when you're pregnant the first time (and thereafter too...lol). I've had 2 kids with very different births. The first time I had no idea what I was in for and I freaked out at the amount of pain I was in and just could not get back in control. I didn't know breathing techniques and just pretty much sobbed the whole time. This last time though, I rented a video about breathing techniques because I was determined just not to let myself lose control this time. I learned the breathing, and even though it doesn't help one bit with the pain, it gets you to focus on something through the contraction. I knew I wanted an epidural, and I got one both times.
The bottom line that I learned is that it's so important to stay focused and in control and not let the pain overwhelm you because then you just aren't good for anything.
I'm so glad to hear that Mark is being a good guy now. Smile You'll need some help once the baby arrives. That first week was killer for me with breast engorgement...yeouch! Are you planning on nursing or bottle feeding?
Hope you had fun at your shower! Smile
He's here!!!! On March 20 at 5am, i felt a trickle of something while i was in bed asleep. I knew i had an ultrasound appointment scheduled for 9am so i waited it out. I knew the minute i opened my eyes that this would be the day. So i went to the docs and had the u/s. They said he was 7lbs. I then asked to see the doc to be checked. He was skeptical as i was not due for 2 more weeks, but when he looked he said i was 70% effaced and leaking a ton of fluid, then told me i should go over to the hospital! I wasnt having contractions at the time so i asked if i could go home and shower which he agreed to. I then went to walmart and cvs, home to shower, then out to lunch with Mark, then off to the hospital we went, still no contractions! This was about 2 pm. They started me on pitocin at about 330pm and the contractions started an hour later. Finally it was epidural time! The anesthesiologist came in and poked at me for a minute and started the epidural. It only ended up working on half my body oddly enough and slipped out when i was dilated to 5!! Mad He put it back in and it never really fully ended up working! I was at about a minute apart by this time (around 900pm) Then i kept telling the nurse i had to have a bowel movement so she checked me and he was on his way out!! I pushed for about 20 minutes and there he was!!! Mark ran out of the room yelling "he's here!" It was amazing! When i felt him leave my body i broke down in tears it was such an incredible feeling! Then they just plopped him onto my stomach and here was this little man staring at me very quietly and intently. I fell in love instantly! Such a miracle birth really is!
The doctor kept massaging and pulling at my abdomen trying to get my placenta to deliver. It was EXCRUCIATING. She could not get it after about 40 minutes so off to the OR i went where they gave me a spinal and did a D&C. I came back to the room and the nurse bathed me and Mark brought Lucas into the room at about 1am where he was very hungry and dad got to feed him and i just had to stare at him!
After minimal sleep we recieved alot of visitors and excited grandparents!
Two days later we went home and have been all getting to know each other ever since!! Mark has been wonderful! So emotional, so hands on, helping me with the night feedings, comforting me and the baby. Im so grateful to have him here with me! And hope i have him here for a lifetime of good memories and love.
So thats it! thats my story! Its not the easiest job ive had but by far the most rewarding!! I never knew i could feel such love. Thanks to everyone for all your kind words and encouragement thru all of this, to think that it almost didnt happen due to my lack of courage and strength! So thanks again! i will definitely be making pit stops here to see how everyones doing and give updates on my little man! Take care all! Very Happy
Congratulations, Susan! I'm so thrilled that everything went well for the most part and you are home enjoying and adjusting to your new addition. How wonderful that Mark is being so awesome, too! I'm so happy for you, Susan! Thanks for sharing this part of your life with us. We love updates, so don't be afraid to pop in every once in awhile! Wishing you all the best for the future---Chris
Hi Susan, I'm so excited for you! It sounds like the whole experience was really positive for you (except for the pain part....) which is awesome. To someone about to face labour and delivery, it's reassuring to hear your story.
Lucas sounds like a pretty blessed little boy to have such a loving mother, and a father who's coming around so well as to be such a help to you. I'm so happy for you--life is such a miracle, as you say. Enjoy this precious time.
Congrats to the happy new family! Take lots of pics and enjoy infancy...toddlerhood is just around the corner. *evil chuckle* Seriously though, have a wonderful time with your new little man.
Woohooooooo! Congratulations mommy and daddy! And welcome to the world Lucas! I'm so glad you made it through everything that you had to go through Susan, and you have a beautiful son to show for it. Very Happy
Congratulations!!! Thank you for sharing your birth story with us. Smile It's always so fun to read those!
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